The eye of the storm

Well, it has been a week since Bill took a turn for the worst. I describe it has like being in a tornado, “in the eye of the storm”. H has had a rough spell and now he is doing better and he is nice and clam. However, I know what is coming “the other side of the storm,” another rough spell. Bill’s nurse said Bill had days, that is why I think we are in the center of the storm., I pray that he stays with us for a little while longer, on the other hand I prayer that he don’t suffer, People ask “how are you doing?” Honestly, I am not sure. I wish I could cry but right know I cannot. I think it is because of the confusion of my feelings. I am angry, why can’t we have more time, why is this happening to us, etc… I cannot lose my soul mate and best friend. What will I do with out him? And last but not lest, Bill and I have spent our marriage in each other company 24/7. He enjoyed being in each other’s company so much that we did not want to leave each other, not even to go to the store… I would trade places with him in a heartbeat if I could. When I told him that he said, “I wouldn’t let you.”