I must say thank you to all of my family and friends, it would have been harder this past month if I didn't have you. Thank you so much for your calls and emails. The time has gone by with the help from all of you and if it was not for our grand daughter, Cali, I think I would have lost my mind by now. I watch her all the time and that fills most days. When I don't have her or a call or email to reply to from a friend the time seems to drift ever so slowly and that’s the time that is the hardest. Learning all over again to be alone. I remember before I got married and how independent I was and alone I felt. I do not want that again. I feel I can't do that again. That was a lonely time of my life. Don’t get me wrong … I had fun but, a lot of the time there was no one to share it with. And, that is what make “alone” hard. , when you got no one to share the good time as well as the bad times with. You remember the old song…. “One is the loneliest number” or how about the country song “sleeping single in a double bed”? Well, those two songs keep playing in my head. From what I have been told I am doing somewhat good…. Everyone is different… but I don’t feel like I am doing good… but I guess those days are to be expected. Thank you and love …. Hugs and kisses to each and everyone of you ….. Love Pat